Weighing the dark with the light...

Today was a day of contrasts. It started out in the negative. Highly negative. Sometimes, living in this world, you get a glimpse of the horror that humans can create. I had a glimpse of that last night. A glimpse so black that it carried over to this morning. Driving to work, my mind raced just wondering how this fact could be possible. In fact, I was so stuck in my mind, I didn't even realize that my radio was off for 10 minutes. My radio is always on when I'm driving.

Driving home, I slipped right back into my funk, and woke up about half way home when, again, I realized that the trees looker greener and the sky bluer than I'd ever seen. It felt strange looking at how beautiful the world is but at the very same time feeling like this black cloud floating through it. I guess then I decided not to dwell on questions I will never be able to answer. The whys and the hows keep you from enjoying the highs and the wows. You can analyze a leaf to death, but it's still a leaf. So, why analyze life? It is what it is, good and bad. Of course, I don't doubt I will still have dark days. But knowing that I can pull myself out of them is a pretty powerful thing.

I went home after that and took a nap on the couch (since the "darkness" kept me up all last night). When I awoke, I felt as though I had slept for hours, instead of just one. The first thing I saw when I opened my eyes was the sunlight coming through the leaves out the window. And I was excited. I jumped up, grabbed my camera and ran outside.

Even though there are some harrowing depths out there, it's comforting to know that light always gets through.