Sometimes something bad happens. You live it, you survive the aftermath, and then, you are thankful for it. Because every single experience teaches us something. I'm not sure what the value is, but every time I learn something I feel closer. Closer to what, I don't know. But I am more knowledgeable, which whether or not I can carry it with me beyond this world, is a highly revered thing for me in this life. When something bad happens, you react. You are not dwelling or even thinking, you are acting. The aftermath is the hard part. You relive the experience over and over in your head every time you close your eyes. You have to tell yourself it is only temporary, have to continually remind yourself it will pass. And then, one day it does. And, once you have established that space between you and the experience, you can see the opportunity to be grateful. Because now you know how you would react in such a situation, now you know that you can survive such a situation, and because of that, you become closer to yourself, I think is what it is. You know yourself better. You appreciate yourself a little more. Your view of the greatness of being a human being gets just a little bit wider. And, though you're not glad it happened, you are grateful for that little glimpse at the part of yourself that you may never have seen otherwise.
There are two lines in my all-time favorite (well, one of the hundreds)
They Might Be Giants song that I have always loved but never quite knew why until now-
Where your eyes don't go a part of you is hovering,
it's a nightmare that you'll never be discovering.and...
Every jumbled pile of person has a thinking part that wonders what the part that isn't thinking isn't thinking of.It's interesting to think of yourself as an iceberg, so to speak. Even you don't know who you are in total, and you may never know all that encompasses you. No one can experience all things. But, at least if you keep your eyes open, for the good and the bad, you might know yourself some. And, to know, know, know you is to love, love, love you.
Should you worry when the skullhead is in front of you
Or is it worse because it's always waiting where your eyes don't go?
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Wow this one hit a little bit too close to home for me right now. Its all compounded by how impatient I am. I know things will get better, but I don't even know how to sit back and let them heal themselves. I don't know how to not try to fix what is wrong in my own life. I can't fix everything, and I logically know that, but I feel guilty when I'm upset about something and I do nothing to help it.
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