For one, as anyone who reads this blog at all will know, I love Florida and I love to be outside. Driving, or should I say riding, along down the coast of St. Petersburg, across the Everglades, and through south Florida, I saw some amazingly beautiful scenery. And though I saw it through a pane of glass, it was enough. It was enough to say to myself- this is the best day of my life. I think maybe that is the only new year's resolution that can be attained. To let it be enough. No more yearning for more. I could've wasted that beauty by wishing I had had time to stop off and hike through it or camp in it; but somehow, in that car, next to my husband, there was no where else I would have rather been.
For two, I went to a party. Yes, me. And better yet, I chose to go. And, I met some wonderful people and had a great time. In fact, my husband was ready to go before I was, which for those who don't know that I am a complete social phobe- this has never happened. I made a friend. A few, actually. And, I talked and made plans and even laughed. I didn't judge myself on the stupid things I might be saying, I just said them.
For three, I spoke my mind. I hate tension and, therefore, confrontation, but I spoke my mind to a complete stranger and I did not let him walk all over me. In fact, I spoke my mind several times- not rudely, but I stood up for myself. I felt strong like my sisters, but this time it was me. I said what I felt, and I didn't have any regrets.
So, this new year my aim is to let it be enough, especially with myself. I found out that when I stop judging myself into a hole, I am a pretty cool person to be around. And, I take some damn good pictures. ;)
This is one I shot of my husband playing. Please check out this and the others at my flickr site-
flickr.com/dewindesigns
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