Restructuring...

We live in a backwards reality.  We eat crap that makes us sick.  In order to feel better, we take medicine.  We eat crap that makes us fat.  In order to lose weight, we take weight loss pills.  We eat crap that makes us tired.  In order to stay awake, we drink Red Bull.

We live in a cyclical reality.  We get a job we don't like so we can have more stuff.  The more stuff makes more bills.  In order to pay the bills, we get stuck working the job we hate. 

We live in a censored reality.  A stomach ache appears, we take a pill.  We are bored, we watch tv.  We feel sad, we buy something.  The moment we have a problem, we rush to find a solution.  We are completely detached from our own internal cues.

This is why I love President Obama.  He doesn't try to solve problems by piling on band-aids that only serve to create new problems.  He goes to the absolute base of the issue and attacks it from there.  If eating crap causes us to feel sick, get fat, and be tired, maybe instead of adding more chemicals, we should stop eating crap.  Instead of working a miserable job to afford stuff that can't even come close to providing us with the sense of fulfillment we are truly looking for, why not quit and give up some of the stuff?  Instead of rushing to solve a problem, perhaps we could listen to our internal voice and what it is trying to tell us.

At least this is what I am currently battling with in my life- cutting it down to the core and rebuilding from there.  But I think it's going to be really hard living where I do with all of the temptation that surrounds me.  It's so easy to take the quick fix, to revolve your life around the title that comes after your name rather than the name before it, to patch up problems and just hope that the dam won't break.  But it takes much more character to be still and listen to what you are telling yourself you really need.  And, in the long run, it provides much more peace.

 Sometimes this is what my decisions make me feel like.